i feel really stupid but i had to post about this cause it actually kinda hurt.

i emailed mackenzie Brooks this today:


and this is what she sent me back:

(no need to give me the pants back. I really don't understand why you need that sweater so bad, but wat ever. I will give it to mark and he can give it to you at work or something. By the way, stop trying to kid yourself that we are 'okay' and that its okay for you to email me like this. If you haven't noticed, i have blocked you on msn. I don't want to hear from you ever again.)

i was like.. wow punch to the gut. I was polite cause i was taught to be polite and i don't want to start anything again.. i was like.. did you really have to go that far?
then of course i was angry and email back and i feel like a bitch cause i said this:

if you weren't retarded, you would have realized that i emailed you for my
stuff.. that's it. You want me dead and i'm okay with that. i'm not in your
life anymore and stop trying to kid yourself that i want you to be in mine.

and i know that seems bitchy but it really hurt!

now onto today... i think megan and carri and i were supposed to hang but i haven't heard from either of them and i work tonight so idunno.... 
this post is really she said this and she said that but it helped me get it out so whatever.

i just want my sweater back.. lol

 well we're back. as in carri+olivia-megan T_T so sad!!!

we are watching "Imagine me and you" and it's already making me laugh. so cute
All indie british movies make me happy COUGHCOUGHdriving lessonsCOUGHCOUGH
awwww

LLAMA!!!!!!!!  

don't ask....
night ya'll we have to get up and work out at 5:30AM this morning

lol xoxo

so i finally listened to 

I kissed a girl

and.. well..   I liked it! lol!

lol sorry i just had to. So, what is up with everybody? I finally got everything at the hospital all worked out so i'm happy =D it's a good feeling. 

i'm trying to plan out a get together type thing so we can all hang at the waterfront. Me and ben made plans to so i hope everyone else can join. and besides i really want to go to the beach sometime soon! and jump off the pier. lol have you guys already done that?

this kinda sounds like more of a letter to everybody than an actually journal but i've got nothing to post about yet, so i'm gonna go to bed.

lol xoxo kisses Olivia

so i'm trying to look at my journal and the computer and the mac lab will let me look at my entry name and post but i can't see my friend pages!!!!! i am angry!!!

i am also angry that i've been in the mac lab since 10, trying to save all my videos to cd and i still haven't even moved them all to the dvd burning comp yet!! takes soo long!!! ugh! oh well.

yesterday at wonderland was amazing!!!!! it was so fun!! BEHEMOTH WAS AMAZING!!!!! lol the whole day was even with the rain!!!! I love Bevin's family! They are soo much fun!!

oh wells gonna go and finish what i started then fucking eat something cause i am hungry!!! ('scuse my french.. which i'm done forever!!!! yeah!)

byees

p.s. i got a 90% on my listening section of my exam, let's hope my reading and writing went as well!

 Since Mackenzie (i don't really need to say Stewart now that Mackenzie Brooks isn't on Lj lol) wrote about her dreams then i think i'll write about mine last night. It was freaky. 

i was running an amusment park and running a kid's slide type thing. But then i had to fix the ride so i ran to my locker to grab my tool kit. While at my locker, i realized i still had to study for my french test so i grabbed my french book too. I fixed the ride but the park was closed for the day soo i fixed the ride and then went home to my HUGE house (which wasn't really my house) and then my mom told me my grandpa was coming over so I could come out to him. Yes come out, because i was a lesbian. 

i woke up and was like.... w.t.f.

lol. so yesterday was so fun! Dennis drove me and Kat to the Osaka party last night. It was kinda boring but the ride up there was soo much fun!!!! Bevin wasn't too happy but what ever. Last night was amazing!

anyhoo i have to go plant with my parents now and then go work at Micky D's from 12 to 6. Then tmr (sunday) i go to wonderland with Bevin and his rents.. Fuuun. 

super excited for tonight but...

i need to print something off for Mr. Robins but there are ppl on my computer..
growls at creepy!

lol anyways (not weak, i just don't have creative mind..) <---- don't ask. anyways...

it's FRIDAY THE 13TH AND OMG!! MAD LOVE!! i love these days. It's nate's 17th birthday today. i don't know if i'd like for my birthday to be on friday the 13th. So i just failed my history exam. I know i did horrible, so don't try and comfort me...

marshall is two seats away from me and i glare at him. I'm gonna miss him being my teacher's assistiant in Anthro. I'm gonna miss anthro. I'm gonna miss all my classes.. except french.. which is ALMOST OVER!!! super pumped!!!!

i'm walking home tonight.. first time in forever.. like since me and Bevin got (back) together.. w-o-w!

(To one person)
I'm not doing this anymore. I'm not playing games with you. Either you move on like you told me to or you don't, okay? simple as that! I hate these games! I've hated them since the day i met you. I'm not going to say that i regret meeting you, cause i don't. It was fun. But it's gone. Died a while ago. You and i both agreed on that. but that doesn't mean we should start treating each other like shit. I'm kind of glad you live where you do, cause if i lived right beside you, i'd shoot myself. I really want you to just grow up for once. I'm not stooping to any level and you know it. I'm just.. done with you. And please don't start to stur up shit down here again cause i don't want this drama. I'm done with drama. If you hurt me now, i will just smile and forget it cause i don't care anymore.
Always some love, but no longer for the same reason
Me

everyone ignore that kk? k. lmao sorry... and ways i'm glad i got that out of my system. I've been wanting to for a while. so yah.. i want to go on my computer!!! Brennen get off of it!!!!!!!

ugh.. going to go. byees

xoxo Olivie

1. so excited for this summer with you!!!
2. I've missed you
3. i'm done with you.
4. I don't know what to say to you
5. FUCK YOOU! (meant to be two o's)
6. I'm excited to be working with you this summer
7. You're going down (two things)
8. You're on your way out
9. I'm gonna get you! ;)

ask me and i will prolly tell you who's who!

lol i am pumped for summer. a little depressed at the MO but it'll pass! this is gonna be a super summer and next year is gonna rock!! exams are almost over!!! Carri (and possibly Megan AKA megg--- nvm.. heh) are sleeping over on friday (the 13th!!!) DUN DUN DUN!!! and i still need to get my super uber note from Carri! lol. Me and Bevin are going to Canada's wonderland in 10 days and it's 3 months (AKA 6) in 8 days!!! we're getting better and i'm actually starting to depend on myself instead of needing others to tell me what i should do! i'm super excited! just did my french exam. i think i did okay. school is over for the day in 10 minutes! wooh! this is gonna rock! CAN'T WAIT.. FOR SUMMER 2008 (lmao Trevor, do you remember that?!) Only sad note is that Tara is finally, gone. I gave her a huge hug and then cried, literally cried all night! I miss her already.. BUT she's coming back NEXT YEAR!!!! yes! wooh.. i should prolly go! toodles!

p.s. i've been watching murder she wrote non stop and i LOVE it even more now!

okie.. i'm posting now cause according to meggers i have not posted enuff.. and now i can't say meggers.. ha ha.. meggers! follow follow follow follow, follow the yellow brick road.. Megan: no we don't follow the yellow brick road! Olivia: Of course!!!! we follow the blue and pink road! the road of hermaphrodites cause according to Jonathan those are their colours! No meggers i do not want your tripod!

Megan:why are you such a bitch darling??(L)
Olivia:cuzzzzzz i looooove you! (LL)

i have to go but i'll be back! wooh! (Time: 8:44AM)

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fire alarm have to go! peace!

here's what's going on in my life.... atm.. in sercetive style!! mwahahaha

1) i'm asking okay?
2) rah!!!!!!!! homework!!!
3) it's almost over (for two things)
4) no idea what you want from me
5) i'm very confused about what i am to you.. (3 people)
6) i miss you soo much
7) die ina fucking hole old man!!!!! I love you Marilyn!! <3

that's about it... love!! <3

so yesterday at anime con i had soo much fun!!!!! i met the cutest guy ever! his name was cory and he and i talked about Yoai for like a half an hour!!! so much fun!!! and Ryan who went as L was such a sweetie!!! ooh! Sara went as Gara and i swear if wasn't her loud out and proud attitude that was screaming at you.. her "swearing like a sailor" mouth was!! lmao every second word she said was fuck or bitch! omg she was fun!! The Savage Bandito was strange... lol I'm going again on sunday.

saturday was weird... i mean first i went biking with Bevin (who thought i was in a mood) and then we stopped and got ice cream. then we walked around the mall a little bit then went back to bevin's house and watched me, myself and irene. it was good i guess.. i wasn't really paying attention and the disk kept skipping 
but then me and bevin fought and i ran away from him when we got into town. so i don't know what's gonna happen!

today i'm going back to anime north.. i don't know if i really wanna go yet tho.. i'm kinda tired and exausted and i'm getting bored of eden and amber never saying a word about anything other than anime..
oh well...

talk to everyone on monday.. p.s. i wonder how Jonathan's hair cut went.. a little birdy told me he was getting one lol

lol so yesterday at my dance competition!!! WE WON!!! omg!!!!!!!!!! 1st place and High Gold!!! i was like woo!
so much fun!! the car ride up... me, mo, eden, alana, and daisy watched hairspray and sang along and sang to the karaoke cd tara made us!! so much fun! then we got lost on the way to the comp! but we got there! on the way back me, mo, eden, alana, nat, and taylen all sang along to the radio and were crazy!! i have a video of mo singing alicia keys' "no one" to her capachino! lmao!!!!!

today my mom took off to work with all three keys to the blue toyota.. the car she WASN"T driving... so we were stranded.. and then my dad's car person Norm offered to make him ANOTHER spare key! *sighs in relief*

lol well i g2g get back to work! tootles!

Today: 

1. missed school
2. cleaned my house and made $50
3. was sick as a dog..
4. have no voice

Tomorrow:

1. missing school
2. leave cobourg @ 6 AM 
3. Dance competition
4. have to sing with no microphones and possibly (if i don't get better) NO VOICE!!!
5. home at 3:30.
6. Shopping for costumes

Friday:

1. missing school
2. eden and amber at my house by 9:30
3. leave cobourg by 11:30
4. spend the day at ANIME NORTH!!!

Saturday:

1. Rest
2. Go Biking with Bevin

Sunday:

1. ANIME NORTH!!!!! 

p.s. i'm only at school one day this week and that was yesterday!!! lmao

p.p.s. KENZIE STEWART!! go on my comp (my pasword is miserybusiness) and then do the sound recordings of yours and ben's bios and i'll come and put them back together on thursday  at 3:30pm.. so it can be done for friday

p.p.p.s. I LOVE YOU!!!!

new list:

1. I love you
2. i wish things were back to the way they were before
3. I'm taking my time with you cause i don't want to mess up
4. THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE AMAZING ALL CAUSE OF YOU!!!! (P.S. ilu Aya-chan)
5. you don't understand anything
6. i don't know what to think of you
7. i don't trust you (2 ppl)
8. DIE IN A SHARP-POINTY-STICK-INFESTED HOLE!!!
9. COME BACK TO ONTARIO!!! (Adam)
10. We NEED to have a movie night soon! (Carri)
11. mwahahahaha you all don't know who is who (everyone on this list who i haven't named!)
12. We need to hang out soon (2 ppl)
13. You are my idol!

 Girlicious song "like me" I (heart) it!
Ladies and Gentlemen
You you, you you
You you, you you (Introducing)
You you, can keep on watching me (Girlicious)
You you, you you
You you, you you
You you, can keep on watching me
(Nichole)
Look at me, I know I'm fly(know I'm fly)
Look at me, you wanna be fly like I
I'm the truth and the truth don't lie
(Natalie)
Gimme 10 feet chick
(Nichole)
Now add another 5
(Nichole - Natalie)
If I had a step one
You'd be all on that (I'm on fire)
I put hot on the map
'Cause I be the one that you wanna be like(Oh,oh,oh,oh)
Yeah you wanna be like me

Everything she do is like me
From her head to her feet, like me
Trying to talk like me
Trying to walk like me
Trying to get all the boys in the club like me
Everything she be is like me
Trying to imitate me
trying to look like me
Trying to act like me
Trying to get on the floor and shake her ass like me
(Chrystina)
Look at me, you know I'm hot (Know I'm hot)
Look at me, bet you wish you had my spot
(Nicole)
You can't, chick, but I'mma let you try
(Chrystina)
To get on my level, level, get on my level tonight
(Chrystina)
If I had a step one
You'd be all on that (I'm on fire)
I put hot on the map
'Cause I be the one that you wanna be like (Oh, oh, oh, oh)
Yeah you wanna be like me

Everything she do is like me (Like me)
From her head to her feet, like me
Trying to talk like me
Trying to walk like me
Trying to get all the boys in the club like me
Everything she be is like me (Like me, woah)
Trying to imitate me
Trying to look like me
Trying to act like me
Trying to get on the floor and shake her ass like me
(Natalie)
Ah, ah
She wish she was fine
Ah, ah
She wish she was dime like me
'Cause I'm a hottie and this a party
She wish she was me and that's too bad
(Tiffanie)
Oh
She wish she was bad
Oh oh
She wish she that she had it, all the boys like me
It ain't easy being meezy baby

Everything she do is like me (Everything she do)
From her head to her feet, like me (Oh yeah)
She's trying to talk like me
Trying to walk like me
Trying to get all the boys in the club like me
Everything she be is like me (Like me, like me, like me)
Trying to imitate me
She trying to look like me
Trying to act like me
Trying to get on the floor and shake her ass like me
(Natalie - Tiffanie)
Ah, ah
She wish she was fine
Ah, ah
She wish she was a dime like me
'Cause I'm a hottie and this a party
She wish she was me and that's too bad

You you, you you
You you, you you
You you, can keep on watching me
You you, you you
You you, you you
You you, then keep on watching me

since that is the expression i used all day..

ya i just worked 14 hours straight.. i wanna kill myself!

1. i love you
2. we need to talk
3. ANIME NORTH WITH YOU IN 8 DAYS!!!!
4. i wanna be close again
5. your almost perfect... but i don't know if almost works 
6. who's side are you on?
7. you are a fake and i hate you!
8. why do you hate me?
9. I miss you so much.. i am willing to give up everyone and everything i've ever wanted for you to come back...


i applaud the ground you walk on ( i tried to say i applaud you and i worship the ground you walk on at the same time.. didn't quiet work)

nights! 

Don't ask.. this post is more for me than for anyone else... it's just how i'm working through wa=hat's happening in my head. so here goes...

Dear Olivia:
         I don't know.. You might be okay. Right now you don't see it.. hell i don't either and we're supposed to be optimists! but you'll find a away. You always do.. somehow... or a way finds you.. it'll get better..

Sincerely,
the-side-you-don't-show,
    your better half

Plans:
A - not happening.. ever again! nope!
B- is the best one of all!
C - could see it working..
D - nah...
E - too out there.. but still fun!
F - would prolly be boring after a while
G - would be fun :)
H - wooah... i wish it would work *sighs*
I - could work... don't see it happening tho.. T_T
J - awesome! has already been semi-put into action!
K - not happening... nope.
L - used this plan already.. failed.
M - maybe.. just maybe..
N - i wish :'(
O - OH HELL NO!
P - crazy.. not a stable one..
Q - would be amazing!! is gonna happen! I will make it work!
R - could be fun.. 
S - tried it already.. don't know if i'm about to try it again..
T - would be really fun and a bucket of laughs! 
U - would be incredible.. i just couldn't keep up with it all the time.. T_T
V - i don't think i could handle it...
W - could be fun... could be boring...
X - i wish.. but most likely not...
Y - idunno...
Z - been there, done that, got the T-shirt.. not going back

so we just had an assembly so thank god my video wasn't presented.. i kinda wish it was but meh! it's all good! going out to film my amazing super hero video with Ben and Mackenzie then going on an anthro trip then working!! fun beans!

love! xoxox

i hate religion!!! a lot of it is just a crock! ok i'm done with that. i had a half spare but i'm prolly just gonna stay in the library all lunch cuz I got a shit load to do...  here my to do list ( and no Ben.. bevin is not on it... at the mo anyways..) 

Olivia's To Do List

Tech Class	- non-smoking video - talking to myself video - superhero video
Psych Class	- DI unit part A - DI unit part B - Rape ISU presentation (get it ready early) Due Monday May 19th (i think)
French Class	- Food on Monday
History Class	- Alerander (part 1 and 2) - Shield (due monday) - ISU intro paragraph

fun beans.. better get going!